Two Sandwiches

(All samples, no real lyrics to speak of...)

The Measure of Pleasure (Sad Bastard Mix)

Think on it now
just what do you want?
You want to close your eyes
and be back there again
Confused as you were
you were in love
the minutes were raw
sad and elusive
but the days and the months
those were conclusive
Which brings you to now
Just how you are...

So, how are you?
So, how are you now?

Sleep on it now
just how do you dream?
You build elaborate sets
so you can redesign
the frame of mind
when you weren't happy
at least you were real
lost and alone
your romantic lifestyle-
the perfect exile.
which brings you to now
just how you are...

So, how are you?
So, how are you now?

Oh you know just what the problem is here but you
wouldn't admit it to anyone near 'cause you
walk at a pace that must always have grace but the
truth of the matter (is) you've never been sadder
and hiding that's madder than any mad hatter
(but) you climb into bed and forget what's been said - again
Blinking and skipping and sprinting and tripping down
memory lane 'til it drives you insane well it's
just not the way that you used to behave and we
all see it coming... the shifting... the dumbing...
the swearing... the thumbing your nose at the people who
want you to be who you know you could be - again

Ponder it now
what could you regret?
You've lost so little
depending on your measure
perhaps a slight drop
in the measure of pleasure
but the things on your list
those right at the top
you've checked them all off
so there's no need to stop
and wonder out loud
just how you are...

So, how are you?
So, how are you now?

Maniac

(Sorry, I'm not allowed to reprint these lyrics since I didn't write them. Google search Michael Sembello's original version from the Flashdance soundtrack and you'll find 'em!)

I Wish I Wanted You (mashup of "I Wish" with Cosmicity's "I Want You")

I feel clean in the dirtiest of ways
I've been stripped of guilt and I love the way it feels
You're like glass but you're only clear to me
I see through your smudges and all your hidden grudges

Wanting you is pure frustration
Having you is purification
Wanting you is devistation
Having you is purification

You're an angel but you've fallen down with me
you've slaughtered inhibition, I bow to your decision
You're like anime, exclamation above your head
The perfect culmination of a thousand dreams I've had

(You'll never have, you'll never have, you'll never have, you'll never have, you'll never have the things that you desire.)

I wish... I were... more than these words reveal...

I feel naked. I feel wasted. I feel lucid. I feel lost.

I wish the world were black and white.
I wish I could say what I mean.
I wish I were a little less bitter.
Maybe then you'd reconsider.
I wish I saw things clearly or you could see what I've seen.
I wish I could stop scrubbing my skin but I'm sure it's still not clean.

I feel naked. I feel wasted. I feel lucid. I feel lost.

You're like water with just a touch of lead
but you're so god damn delicious I'll drink you 'til I'm dead.
I'm like steam and you are ice cold steel.
I cover you, I drip from you, I love the way you feel.

I wish...
(wanting you is pure frustration)
I were...
(having you is purification)
more than these words...
(wanting you is devistation)
reveal...
(having you is purification)

Coming Clean (Club Mix)

Each night before I sleep
I think and sometimes freak
out loud about my life
Each time I think of us
The things we don't discuss
those neat, unwrinkled sheets

And now... isn't quite what we projected
I know tonight won't go as planned
but I want to anyway
even awkward, it's still good
I want to anyway.
It still feels like it we should

You took that Cosmo quiz
it said that things like this
are fine. We'll heal with time
That's great. That's good to hear
sometimes I live and fear
the truth is far more dire.

And now... isn't quite what we projected
I know tonight won't go as planned
but I want to anyway
even awkward, it's still good
I want to anyway.
It still feels like it we should

Look into my eyes
just because it's weird
If you see something wrong
I know it won't change a thing

Look into my eyes
you will find an excuse
Just because it's weird
doesn't mean I don't want to
If you see something wrong
I'll just turn out the lights
I know it won't change a thing
But it'll work for tonight.

And now... isn't quite what we projected
I know tonight won't go as planned
but I want to anyway
even awkward, it's still good
I want to anyway.
It still feels like it we should

Backlash (8-Bit Mix)

You've chased me down
you've found me out
you've pulled my hair
you've made me shout
obscenities
at the top of my lungs
'cause it's so damn fun
'cause it's so damn fun

Am I... drowning in the things I've said?
Have I... lost you in the doubts I've had?
Will you backlash now, or offer some proof
that book you are quoting is absolute truth?

You've seen me push
You've helped me shove
I've taken more
though I've had enough
I've bitten off heads.
I've eaten my young.
I've acted on instinct.
though you said I have none.

Am I... rubbing you in just the wrong place?
Did I... blaspheme you with my lack of taste?
Will you backlash now, or will you, in fact,
reveal your mercy and leave me intact?

You've made me fight
then watched me fail
Just waiving my arms
through the bars on your jail
I've rallied my strength
still chained to this wall
still screaming cold truth
but you hear nothing at all

Am I... asking for a mouth full of soap?
Have I... done something to offend your pope?
Will you backlash now, or will you explain
just how the almighty is making these claims?

Perverse (Original Demo)

I've got this mirror
that I look in sometimes
just to see what you see
just to see what scares you when you look at me
I know you like it
yeah, I know you love it
Even though it shakes you
Even as you scream that I'm no good...

'cause I'm perverse
clean in reverse and it feels good
yeah I'm perverse
it could be worse, I could be like you

You're slipping under
a wicked spell of boredom
tired of all those morals
tired of all those rules that you repeat
I know you hate it
yeah, I know you loathe it
Even though you preach it
Even as you snitch me out to God...

'cause I'm perverse
clean in reverse and it feels good
yeah I'm perverse
it could be worse, I could be like you

It's true that I think some unthinkable thoughts
I live without fear - I don't care if I'm caught
I don't live under your blanket of rules
soft fabric for control of a bed full of fools
sleeping and snoring your short life away
oblivious to anything that's not your way
so open your book, recite your prayer
you can live without challenge, but I'm taking the dare

'cause I'm perverse
clean in reverse and it feels good
yeah I'm perverse
it could be worse, I could be like you

Little Goth Girl (Ethereal Mix)

Little goth girl
She doesn't know how sweet she is
She dresses up to scare me
but all she does is dare me

to lift buttons from her corset…
smell the clove in her hair…
lost in her extensions
I pretend that I don't care

so she won't think that I’m romantic
but rather dark instead
and with this slight adjustment
she might love me, but as I've said
it must stay my little secret
that I adore the pale undead of my
perfect
little
goth
girl

Precious goth girl
Wears black lipstick and a solemn frown
She thinks that she intimidates
But her darkness just initiates

the relentless pure devotion
of a lonely normal guy
who wears eyeliner to the club
and you may just wonder why

it’s so she won’t think I’m romantic
but rather dark instead
and with this slight adjustment
she should love me, but as I’ve said
it must stay my little secret
that I adore the pale undead of my
perfect
little
goth
girl

Selective Memory Loss (Pure and Simple Mix)

Static stocking feet on fuzzy beige plush shag
talking through commercials and the standard sitcom lag
A shock to my system would be so incredibly welcome
but the room just keeps on waiting... the light just keeps on fading...

Tonight I won't sleep
I don't want to dream
I don't own this life
I don't know what it means
Tonight I won’t move
I don’t want to feel
I don’t know this place
I don’t know what’s real

Faking that I'm tired so I'm left alone to pout
Laying on the edge of comfort, sagging soft with doubt
A reason to revolt would be everything I need
but the air is stale and silent... the darkness somehow violent...

Tonight I won't sleep
I don't want to dream
I don't own this life
I don't know what it means
Tonight I won’t move
I don’t want to feel
I don’t know this place
I don’t know what’s real

Won't you show me how my choices have made me a whore?
Can't you dare me to stop and not do this anymore?
Even casual suggestions or a part-time interventions
would be better than the quiet of this pointless self-confession

Tonight I won't sleep
I don't want to dream
I don't own this life
I don't know what it means
Tonight I won’t move
I don’t want to feel
I don’t know this place
I don’t know what’s real

Goodnight My Love

Goodnight my love.
I'll miss you so.
I'm not sure what happened between us
I just know it's time for you to go.
Goodnight my love.
You look so sweet.
It's not clear why I have to do this
I just know it's time for this to end... for you.

One last kiss upon your wrist
to mark the place where I must cut you... free...
One last tear, and now, my dear,
I hope you know how much I love you.

Goodnight my love.
Please don't resist.
You must know that I had to save you.
You must feel so much better now... I'm sure...

One more kiss as you slip
away from all of the exhaustion.
One last glance as you pass.
You always looked so pretty sleeping...

Perverse (Syrian Remix)

(Same lyrics as earlier version.)

Green California

(Lyrics for "Green" only. Not allowed to reprint lyrics for the cover of "California Love" at the end of this track.)

Hey look, I know it's crazy
but I'm just way too clean
I need to fuck this up
I need to turn it green

Oh sure, we have a pattern
and that's all very nice
but time has made us lazy
I say we feed this vice

Lets go... come on, shall we?
You know you want to want me.
Get free and watch her touch me.
I'll make you wet with envy.

Oh shit, it makes me crazy
when you won't play along
You have to know we need this
You have to let her do this

What's that? You say it's stupid.
You say it makes you sick.
But I know it makes you flutter
I know it makes you stick

Lets go... come on, shall we?
You know you want to want me.
Get free and watch her touch me.
I'll make you wet with envy.

Your Beautiful Lie (Mark Nicholas vs. Cosmicity)

I think, therfore I am
a bit too cerebral for your sensual ways.
You are the definition of aloof
never seeking truth or even motivations.

Oh why would I want to deny your beautiful lie?
Why would I want to deny your lie?

I smell your thoughts in the air
like the scent of your hair, it turns me on.
Your mystery excites me today
like it does most days, only more than before.

Oh why would I want to deny your beautiful lie?
Why would I want to deny your lie?

If you want you can tell me strange lies
and I'll rest here believing in the world you describe.
If you want you can pretend you're perverted
a nd I'll rest here believing that you never pretend.
If you want you can tell me strange lies
a nd I'll rest here believing in pure fantasy.
If you want you can persuade me with passion
and I'll rest here believing that I found the real you.

I close my eyes to the truth
It's got nothing on you. I don't want to know.
You take my resistance away.
I've got nothing to say. Let's go and play.

Oh why would I want to deny your beautiful lie?
Why would I want to deny your lie?